long awaited closure

eight months ago. i had this dear friend. things got mucky. he wanted something. i did not. i wanted something. he did not. we parted without discussion. no more lengthy hugs. no more deep gazes. no more anything. severed ties. it was appropriate. but it hurt. i wondered about his life. i asked the mutual crowd and i was silenced. days went by. i learned to pretend i was letting go. i learned to control my expression when his name was brought up- for the most part. i miss him. a lot. tears came. i would let go. only to take back. my tears dried. i still would wonder, but the acheing was not alongside. three days ago. i saw him. i stood next to him, hands shoved in my jacket pockets. my body tense but still. my mind caught in a "what is going on" mode. he asked how i was. my left jacket pocket ripped. "good. you?" "good. still at the same place?" "still there. are you still living and working at the same locations?" "yeah. are you doing ok?" "i am. are you doing alright?" "yeah. it's good to see you jas." "thanks. this is weird. i am going to go now." "ok." "ok. bye." "bye." i left with my ripped pocket, shocked state of surrealism. i left and i knew he was ok. and i was ok. and it was such a goodbye. i love him, regardless. but the closure was timely. i wonder whats next.