tuesday on the couch

later. i will get up but not right this moment. ((that sounds like it has a bit of a hidden meaning... it sort of does. *i am just not going to delve into the conversation during this hour.))

__yesterday, i returned to the rectangular state entitled, colorado. surreal moments in the hills of wisconsin and the high rises of downtown minneapolis, i than returned to the ghost town of the west. i am glad i am back. sort of. it is appropriate. and it is good. i have truly been offered amazing oppurtunities in this place during this time. i am a runner. and i should perhaps, consider that when also attempting to figure out what is occuring in my life presently. (*and not run from it?)

trees. skyline. becky. rachelle. crown nostalgia. no billy. tattoo. shandi. john. reily. annies palour. sarah o. sarah f. pregnancies. 36th. jason. ice cream cone. hwy 94. menomonie. wal-mart. katie. lynnae. lyndsay. jamie. dove. whispers. culvers. shawn. wedding. puffy lamb. mark. erin/brent. hs: leah, andrea, phil, amy, sandy, liz, tom. giggles. jeff/jim? ernie/bert? danny. rain. playing. stuarts...grape, key lime, cherry, origanl root beer pop shots. stories. string cheese. pumpkins. dirty stashes. movies. late night drive to exit 45. bethany. foot soaking. slight yelling. sweet dreams. coffee. omleattes. late. doughnuts. robyn. james. the sarahs. bethany. god? rhonda. cassie. darren. randy. libby. eden. ginger. roger. marsha. jenni. exhausted. new husbands/wifes. new pregnancies. new babies. new stories. new people. fudge. packers. dave. dody. laughter. grass. multiple marys. nap. senior pictures. dirt stains. park. posing. leaves. clear water in clear water. bear. zeal. heated car. bright stars. lots of questions. feast. olives. communication. sky streak. coffee. airpoill rt. more coffee. sleep. more sleep. male flight attendent. mountians.
((my parents are in maine. amber is in salem. and emma is in scottland. with that being stated, i truly did feel as if i was visiting family. and that was lovely.))

ok. now i will get off the couch. now is the time.
love you all.
love you from this ghost town.
((by the way... god is the same in the lush enviroment as well as the arid. i change. but he is the same. and i am still alive. god is still very much in me. what are those verses? those promises. that i now must cling to and remind my existence because i am not able to cast responsibility to another. so, i ask instead: pray. to the only true holy god. because... friends-- there is one. ONLY one though. so, crap. that means a lot. i get to dance. but right now i feel rather crushed.))
ok. the bag of candy corn is gone. the laudry's cycle has been completed. and i must move from the presence of this small dog. ((yes. our new housemate has a small dog. you know how i feel about this.))

i used to fast on thursdays

i think that may have been why thursdays have been my favorite for quite some time now... i wrote a note to jesus on the back of a receipt today. maybe tomarrow, i will get a note in return. *today, i worked a lunch shift as a server. it was the first day they didn't regulate my tables. i broke three hundred in sales, which means it is a fairly good lunch. there were two other 'white shirts.' the customer flow was consistent. troy showed me how to do a proper cashout, and i joked around with minnesotian jeremy and lovely angelina. chef chris 'watched my back' as i climbed up on the bread station to change a light bulb. new days and what they bring...*i then stayed for family meal. eggplant parm. and fett. sup.-- yum. *jenna was doing envelope work, yeah-- i guess i am not going to be there in a little while. i hope they got stuffed. those envelopes...*brought some cash and a check to my friends at wells fargo. we spoken with light hearted banter about the benifits of coffee and red wine. not mixed. *i rode home on my squeaky bike. (tomarrow, i truely do need to grease that timid beast up.) *kris, lazee and i drove in the 'rollerskate' to KMart. we purcahsed an $80 vaccum cleaner. i feel old. it was a good purchase but... *laundry didn't happen. financil figuring, did not occur... woody and trish decided on going bowling. i was leaning towards a no-go BUT i had been wanting to hang out with them... so, i went. after two bowls of late evening raisin bran i figured i could lace up the bowling shoes and bond moreso with some of the fun people who live in the same house i now reside in. it was good. some gutters, a strike- a fifth place game. remeeting people. i smiled, and i meant it. *now i am lying in bed, casually tossing a rollo in my mouth. there was a deal a KMart, lazee and i both bought two bags. *i think i might go to bed now. love you. me